after one year -- now with xann!(:
















pouting - ohh jaysreeeeeeeee(:















WE MET HELL (:

i'm a sucker for hindi love songs.
gaaah.

i was hooked on to like i dont-know-how-to-pronounce songs yesterday.
they make me go all wushy mushy inside, like my heart suddenly decides it wants
to become margarine! and ineluctably, tears well up in my eyes.

why,taahira? why must you be such an emotional wreck.
*bangs head.
this is like my online/virtual diary, but i realised i'm not typing ANYTHING
close to how i'm feeling. (which is like 2013278382738 more) because i've come to realise
that maybe i am secretive when it comes to like
pretty much like a balloon with a spectrum of emotions expanding
somewhere in between my lungs and heart.

hmmmm- i wonder how asthma feels like. *frowns.


all this before i watched criminal minds! (which is at like 2am?channel 5 is full of bullshit)
but i've been watching it consecutively (:

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the people in my amath tuition are like becoming nice,
not the egg-fried,bowl cut-cheena-55666 YAY i love you zhian kwai kwwaiii-kailan type!
good speaking english people who are cuute!
very motivational i tell you, to like be happy that i can ask them somethings i don't get
and they won't say "xiao ti ti, poo zhi tao " *heavy cheena accent (taahira version)
:D at least i know, i did math! thats the only thing i can solace to when i think too much.


i'm gonna get out the house today, whether its maya, timothy, or even kaamela.
i just need to.

well,

i don't want to write down the number of days to ________________.
let me just take my happy pills and let my endorphin level shoot high.
p.s - maya, thankyou thank you for always _.

peculiar isn't it?
how people you thought, you'd never forget and will always love
become someone you don't really talk to anymore?
and how when you just get stuck at home and become bitter
when you think of them.

i always wanted to forsee the future but come to think of it.
i'll take that off my never ending wish quest.
fear is something that always overwhelms me,
i tend to get emotional, very often reallly.
but only certain people actually listen to you or bother
to care out of that superficial layer of friendship.

next year holds much in store
and the fear that protrudes out of every other emotion
haunts me -- coffee bean is a nice place to study.
found the close to ideal studying khaki -- anneh!
HAHA but not very ideal cos he's gonna be digging in NS. *frowns!

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i've had 3 hours of tuition (amath) for the past 3 days.
no i'm not complaining, i guess it pays back for the amount of work i missed :(

so many things boiling in me.
like like bubbles sprouting out of my heart.


now that its all said and done,
i can't believe you were the one,
who built me up and brought me down
like an old abandoned house.


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i have to note down this observation (s)

#1 : there was this really old lady, like in her 50s she was wearing really low cut pants- so you could see her butt crack and the worse part her maxi was sticking out *pukes.
#2 : ganeng sec ELDDS ppl are fun!
#3 : i'm so fickle. god



retarded thing(s) (there were really a lot today)
#1 : i'm not sleeping, i'm biting my nails and waiting for criminal minds to start
and i woke up at 8am.
#2 : my dinner tonight sucked - mr bean's pearly soya milk which was heaven at first but now the sediments are like in my colon or maybe jejunum (i love saying this word) making awful noises :( i'm sure i'll wake up tmr craving for blueberry morning!

pffffffffffffffffffffffffft.



p.s - thank you shal, for annually organising a christmas get-to-gether(:
you're the lucky star of my christmas tree. maybe 30th is for us again!


p.ss - HAPPY HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY ANNEH, DEAREST! :D



LOVE YOU
till
BON BON
CHOCOLATES*

making sure that there's nothing growing on the inside --
toote, toote, toote!

*bobbing head.

i haven't done this in a long long time.
sit down straight and finish all my tuition homework!(:
its like you can relieve yourself from that burden !
*if bryan was here, he'd say i'm being an optimist again. HA !

observations of the day.
#1 green grapes are rounder and look juicer BUT actually they taste worse then crimson seedless grapes! :(
#2 MY UNCLE'S BEST FRIEND IS SO RICH ! - he has like 3 pent houses to himself !
# 3 i'm on the brink of becoming an impulse shopper =X

funny thing(s) of today&yesterday.


#1 a dog accidentally licked my K _ _ _ _ _ A (youknowwho's) hair! HAHAHAHA.
she had to bathe in mud or something, which i doubt she did.
cos where do we get mud from? the pig's farm! LOL!


#2 on rayer, we had to korban (cut) a goat/cow/camel's head which i didn't do because i don't like seeing them skin the goat its makes me feel like someone's gonna peel off my skin :( so anw!
my brother came home from the mosque with his shirt splattered with blood (literally) anddd
my father was all " yenna, kolai senjidiya da? yenna da? yeain da?
( what happened to yr shirt? why did you murder someone!-- and kept on throwing accusations at him before he could admitt to him)
and it was super duper funny because my brother had a packet of meat in his HANDS! LMAO!


#3 i watched kabhi alvida kudnos jughaj smth smth (never say goodbye-- the hindi movie)
in which sharukhan, rani mukarjee, pretty zinta and abisheik acted in - a movie abt 2 people leaving their families to have an affair and my aunt who strictly doesn't even allow her children to say stupid at home, watched in cinema! HA HA !


boiling point of the yesterday _


#1 when i went for tuition in (telok blangah) as early as 10 in the morning, i was plugged on to my nana and seriously VERY VERY SLEEPY.
then an old man in a ragged shirt came to me and complained of liver cancer and some other diseases he was diagnosed with, so i stared blankly at him with mouthing the
" if i could find you now, things would get better! we could leave this town and run forever ! "
he said " huh? what girl?"
then i said " huh ! , i didn't say anything "

cos i wasn't even bothering to care --
all i knew is that he kept staring at my cleavage (which really wasn't much)
so i took off my nana cos i realised he must have seen me mouthing the words and i really didn't want to give him hope that he could rape me then and there!
so, diligent taahira listened to the old man (who was a drunkard & a pervert )
he repeated his dilemma and i realised he was broke
so i took a dollar (how, magnanimous i know, right! so unlike me)
and said " you can get your ko-pi-o with this."
i just wanted him to move off, but here's wherre it gets infuriating.

he tells me he wants prata with it.
i just stare at him and plug on my nana again.
and my tuition teacher, mr kuan comes to my rescue
and pulls me to the side and chides me to be more reluctant when it comes
to giving money.

and then
* drum rolls.

a very cute aaron aziz+fadli's hair+nice brown eyes 19year oldish policeman comes
(cos mr kuan calls the police to come and bring the beggar away)
to check on me and tells me i should not be so easy with my money.
because its not safe for me and the usual im-a-policeman-listen-to-me talk !
gah. he was cuuuuute. *GRIN GRIN! ;D

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that very day was the christmas bash! (i was invited so very last minute)
and banks went! (HAHA,BILABOO)
but i needed to leave after the singing cos my mum
wanted me to go for dinner at swensens(:
*half hearted smile.
feeding on too much meat recently.
but it was good my almond crusted lamp chop!
*pines for high metabolism!

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and on sunday was family gathering for the zillionth time.
was under dressed this time -- major time.
people were in like half saris and i was in a selvar kaamis xS

p.s - still contemplating on wearing the black sari for uncle's wedding next year ;D
p.ss - don't know if i should straighten my hair or stay the curly wurly head! (:
p.ss - this is a wordy post, after a long time. LOL

LOVE YOU LIKE
YELLOW KIWIS.

CLOTHES DILEMMA WHIRLPOOL.
*BREATHE IN, BREATHE OUT.

I HAVE 1 HOUR.

OH FUCK.



where's the fairygod mummy when you need her?
pfffffffffffffffffffft.


p.s - now i REALLY really think policemen are cuute!
(:

you make me wanna lala

shalala,

i adore shopping with shalini!
does that wrap it all?
i reached home late but in time to catch CSI. (:
omgee, i think my next ambition after ____ and ____ is to become a CSI-seriously
or maybe a policewoman or marry a policeman-smth like that ;D

town decorations are like so pretty!


i sound like bimbo but seriously you should meet some people who are twice my age : C _____. *no personal attack! its just an observation. HAHAH











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my calves alwaays hurt after a good whole-day-shopping
yesterday my mouth hurt too







































EHEHE - shali ,




i wanted subway for dinnner from JB :( UGHHHHHH.
*broken promises -shakes head.
i ended up drinking milo and sleeping after CSI.

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funny thing of the day I : shal's maid is gonna star in the movie return of the maids.
p.s- her maid hid like her stone/nana in a plastic bag in the corner of no wherre -.-

funny thing of the day II : shashi called me from melbourne to tell me he can't make it for the reunion tmr! X0

funny thing of the day III : OMG- doughnuts so pretttyyyy!






makes you wanna smile :D

BUT for muslims __






OOPS?
for those who can't see.
it says - our products use frying oil containing ingredients of pork origin :(












BUT THIS - is still good (:

(ignore, the vegan part)







observation #1 : i might be a compulsive shopper - hmm hmm.
#2 : green pleat dresses are hot and in.
#3 : GUESS BAGS ARE IT!

ccolest picture of the day :




L O R

















oh and the other i went out with rgp girlies at last!(:
3 reasons why i think our friendship lasts till now
#1 they are so funny.
#2 coolest chinese i've met.
#3 i love 6bEEEE.

21st - meet up again!(: OH OH OH!

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oh and all the bitterness of yesterday's yesterday is going away.
HAAH. imagine if i said the cure to it was when i did AMATH.
but i did revise! as the load lessens you feel more buoyant! TRUST ME ;D
math is fun when you have lots of paper, an ipod , a nice green pencil and a good brain. yeah this is coming from ME(:

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have a dinner tonight at breeks and i can see my wallet shrink.
but no one hands is big enough to hold on to this fear
still reunions are always fun(:



LOVE YOU
LIKE
THE RED BALLS
ON CHRISTMAS TREES.

ltr!
(:

no one's heart is strong enough to fix what happened here.
its our voices out loud to find answers that can be found.

this is like the worst i've felt in a long time,
its like all this pent up feelings rising insanely up in my brain.
and the result : nope, not insomnia.


bitterness, just pure bitterness.

lesson learnt : in 1 week, i need to be out of the house every alternate day.