i might not be one of your best child(or creation) because i must have sinned quite a bit. but i certainly have learnt my lesson, i might not become all cured in like 24hrs. to be very candid, i CANNOT become all pure and holy now, but i can pray and pine. and thats just what im doing. please take into consideration, i'll be very far away from home. my family and my medication, i'm imploring with all my heart that you cure me soon. not from the sickness alone, but from everything that will make me a staunch believer in faith. truthfully, i never had a strong faith (eemaan) , no not because i purposely ignored it. it was because i felt like my religion was a little like a chore. yes im sorry, please forgive. i know my religion is sacred and i know it tells the truth only, so please read this and understand my plight. i reallly just wanna be strong both physically and physcologically. please, please do this for me. there are so many, in abundance sudden unexpected things that can happen like
1. a tree falling and killing me. 2. i trip over a rock and cut my vital nerves. 3. i drown (though i can swim) 4. something like a demon enters my body.
im not intrepid, though people say i put up this facade people came that i am. no, i'm not like TIMID, but i have my phobias. i like the supernatural but i dont wanna get posessed, i wanna have the best tiime of my life tomorrow. with no reason to be demoralized or melancholical about, so once i again i pray you will make me better, god. i really do! faith is believing in the unseen, and i do. so its all in your hands now.
