the black beads i bought splayed onto the floor today evening because off my sister's itchy fingers.
all the little black beads seemed to add on to my hoarding list.

i have to admit. i am a hoarder. i did hoard, i am hoarding and i will hoard.
other hoarders will concede with me that its all part of this desire to remember things till eternity, in fear that we might acquire dementia or alzheimer's disease. all the little chips of papers where little notes were written, pens we used during primary school, watches that have spoiled and other random but valuable things that we are still possessive off.

when i reached home after bowling today, i was ransacking my cupboard to dig out a box full of my baby teeth and a suitcase full of letters i wrote to my friends in primary school.

obviously, these conspicuous amounts of memories only made my heart more buoyant.
i felt like singing this song by backstreet boys and i did.

its these little hobby that i savour and indulge that made me do well(: (i think)
cos i kept everylittle purple post it(that june gave me) of knowledge and scraps of paper and notes and kicked myself so hard to do well. and i did!
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i did not go to school for the past 2 days and gosh i did not write SKIP or PON school because i do have a valid reason! (NOT DEFENSIVE) but i'll be in school tomorrow.

even though, i was at home hazel was always faithfully texting me my later updates in marks so i'm fully aware of most of my results/grades.

(:

the bomb for me is : I PASSED MY ADDITIONAL MATHEMATICS! i freaking passed it although it was the phobia/worry of my entire sec3 life. i actuallly passed it. with i don't know how much, BUT I PASSED (: its sunk in a bit cos i ate a cookie for nestle house!(:
i have 20 adjectives of happy, very happy, extremely happy in my head but none of them can express how much happiness is in my heart. how much i need to thank mr kuan and ali and my dearest dearest most loving intellegent brother for listening to my most un-sound to sound whinnings of amath even in the extreme wee hours of the morning! *ANNEH&MUMMY - :D

the 2nd thing i was blown away with was my chemistry marks.
i mean, its not that my very close friends don't understand me, they do very well. but their chemistry teacher is the best and they will never ever take the same papers as me, so the trouble and pain i had to go through, they never knew, the difficulty it took me to just understand and master all the calculations for chemistry was the painful but worth it. i had no tutor for chem so i was always on my own considering my teacher was at salts when i was coaching myself on conc formula. no matter how slow i am i pulled it off with a DISTINCTION!(:

so far i've failed NOTHING for the eye(:
mostly high b3s and As as far as i've heard.
so bless the lord and my efforts.
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somehow or rather i have realised i am my biggest enemy, honestly this is so cliche. but anneh was right. i feel like an m&m, happy, small, sweet and impressionable. then again i won't be surprised if some people are shocked at my marks like
"taahira the geek! should be 7as" but i didn't get 7as but its like i can't be bothered anymore.
i do not need a plaster on my head that says, just the girl with 7as.
there's still the o levels to conquer, one year more(: slightly hopeful but there's always room for more improvement.


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malik,

thank you so much for helping me when i cried the day before the chem paper,
thank you for coming home from camp to teach me when you were exhausted,
thank you for listening to me cry and cry without cringing till i looked like a gold fish,
thank you for telling me i was still your younger sister who you loved,
thank you for telling me you will always be there for me&keeping your promises,
thank you for your genuine insults that bruised my ego once but made me stronger,
thank you for being my eldest brother

who i would never want to trade for anything in the world.
our love-hate relationship can make me laugh though now tears trickle down my cheeks,
you're that one-special person i would bawl out loud for if you died or left,
but never admit that i loved to death.

i did well for Amath just like you said, i PASSED(: and i got distinction for chem.
part of me, cannot believe it because my insecurities still wield me inwards.
but i know as long as i have you& YOUR BRAINS, i will be safe.

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(sorry for the little corny post. but i had to)

before, i forget!

kavita!(:
you're supergirl now.
one more year to go!
i'm so proud off you.
i'm so sure, you're gonna be top in 34.
ALL (note : ALL) your hard work has paid off(:
i seriously cannot express, (but i will, remember kinder bueno?)
how much i loveyou! and am proud of your distinctions!

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now that my vehement rantings are over.
i have a weekend to look forward for(: and i have cash to shop with!
so i just want to go to the beach at night and i will.

bye choco chex!